Is it all or nothing?

Hey guys. I’m just curious… for you, Has the vaginismus completely blocked all attempts at intercourse, or has it worked once, twice, occasionally? And if it did, did it feel good to you or just painful? I’ve had one successful attempt since this began for me and it WAS painful, ugh, but it felt good too. Like I just wanted it to stop hurting so I could fully enjoy it, but I didn’t want to stop until near the end when it began to hurt too much. And then the next time we tried it didn’t work and hasn’t since which was so disappointing because in my mind we had broken the seal, so to speak. So I’m just wondering if this is common..