Imposter syndrome

I'm really feel like I don't belong here.

It's been sometime and holy shit. Yall are smarter than me. More socially adjusted. Have friends. I hate it here. Schools hard. Lifes hard. I have no friends.

I don't belong here.

Last week I was off of 3 days of studying and I was frantically trying to get to my exam but didn't know where to go.

I tried to say excuse me and ask for directions. And was told "I have no change".

Like damn. I get I'm poor. But holy shit what a punch to the gut. It was so cruel.

This is a venting post. I know there is no solution. Lien wtf. No shame on being homeless, I've been there. But to assume. And to just swat me off. Wow.

I understand I can't use a singular instance to paint a whole school but shit the financial pressures are real. I work 50 hours a week while full time and I still get spit on.

But damn. I know this isn't everyone. But tbh I never want to come on campus again.

Idk. The self hatred just keeps growing.

I know there's good people. I just haven't met them.

But shit. All the chatter about umich was true. And at this point I regret ever pursuing admitting.

I'm not worthless.