Even alcohol couldn't help my pathetic ass I am gonna die alone

Was at a social event last week really hoped I would be able to talk to some people make some friends finally not be so fucking lonely always heard from people drinking alcohol can help you shed away the anxiety I guess I just made at as this magic make me a functional human being drink in my head but thats what I do I start drinking I drink and drink and drink beers whisky vodka I drink nothing I feel no difference I see people around me getting more loose talking to each other strangers just making conversations while i stand alone In my own anxious little bubble scared as ever of approaching anyone I just cant do it I cant no matter how much I drank It didnt go away I really dont have any hope left now I always kinda thought atleast alcohol might help me but nahhhhhh my anxiety is just crippling me I hate myself