my friends are going to confront me and i’m scared

i cut on my upper arm and on my lower hips/thighs. i wanted to wear cute clothes like crop tops and low rise pants and i thought putting makeup on the scars would be enough but people noticed. some of them are old but i’ve relapsed recently. one of my friends say the others plan to corner me and confront me about it, ask why i’m cutting. a couple already did and i kinda js changed the subject or laughed it off.

wtf do i even say when they corner me?? “i hate myself” IM GONNA SOUND SO EMO… guys please give me excuses they know it’s cutting so i can’t pass it off as cat scratches or smth, i just need something to say to get them off my back because self harm is something i need to get through by myself. people trying to help doesn’t work i’ve gone through this before therapy is useless for me 😭😭 and honestly i don’t even have a true reason why i cut it’s just so addicting and it helps me get distracted quickly and easily but i can’t tell them that. advice pls !!!!