When your only gets older..

My son just turned 5- we are now firmly OAD but I have so many feelings as he gets more and more independent. I feel like a huge part of my purpose and actual time has been spent caring for him- and now that I know I’m not having another one, I feel like I am having a little mid-life crisis. What will I do with myself while he is at school all week? I work seasonally so from like Dec-April things are pretty slow. I’ve been honestly grieving the baby stage being over and wishing I could do it again, but I know it would never be the same with a second child. I miss my son as a baby.

I want to encourage my son to be independent and grow up- but I am sad and trying to figure out my identity and purpose and basically get a life!

Has anyone else gone through this? How did you find yourself again as your child gets older?