Help?

Long story short, I’ve always been fascinated by being neutered. It has been a sexual fascination but, as of late, I feel as though that mentality has expanded. My partner has had me locked in chastity and I don’t even really notice my clitty anymore. Now, in a completely non-sexual way, I have been feeling disinterested in my balls… I’m not sure if this falls under the category of gender dysphoria but my partner doesn’t think that I’m completely CIS. I’ve never had words to put to my gender identity but, being born a man, I feel extraordinarily feminine quick frequently. It’s all just so confusing… any thoughts would be appreciated 🩷💛💙