He has escalated to physical violence.

There is a snowstorm currently raging through my city, and I am stuck in this apartment with him. I am covered in marks and bruises. I shit you not, I asked him when he would finish up his gaming (it was 11am, he started at 8am) to see if we could do something together. A simple question triggered him to fly off the handle.

He insulted me horrifically and when I told him I refused to be disrespected, he began shoving me and throwing my things on the ground and threatened to kick me out into the snow. He threw me by my neck, got in my face, and continuously pushed me to the ground. He threatened to punch me in my mouth. When I tried blocking him from grabbing my things, he called me useless and squeezed my arms so hard I thought they would pop. He clenched his fist and brought it up to my cheek. He threatened to kick me out into the snow.

He has no idea how to use reddit, is unaware of my secondary account, and the app itself is hidden on my phone and only accessible via my Face ID. He isn’t even aware of this feature. He has been combing my phone and keeping tabs on my internet search history ever since last night when he saw I searched: “boyfriend shoved me”

It’s not safe for me to search anything. Incognito is disabled on my phone. Please help me. Even just a phone number to a DV line would help. I just reread the rules and understand that I cannot post personal info (in this case, my location). I cannot click the links in the resource tab or he will see them.

Thank you.

EDIT: thank you to the mods and members here for your extremely quick help and resources. I have placated him enough that he believes everything is fine. I have taken photos of my injuries. Planning my escape is now possible thanks to you.

EDIT2: I just feel very alone. Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day. He has gotten me gifts. I don’t know how I will be able to accept them. He threatened to toss them all out and cancel his orders, but he’s reverted to exhibiting mild excitement in regard to giving them to me. It’s weird. I am sitting on the couch with him now, watching YouTube videos, covered in marks, like nothing has happened. He’s kissed me and hugged me. I can’t stop crying at random moments. He got in my face jokingly and I nearly had a panic attack. This snowstorm is so ridiculously bad. I will have to endure (or rather just placate) his presence for an entire day tomorrow. Saturday he is at work. I will pack up my stuff then. He works 12h. I hate that he’s made us separate our bonded cats we bought together. I hate that they watched while my boyfriend shoved and threw me around like a rag doll all because I asked him when he would finish gaming. I can’t believe he grabbed my neck. I used to love this person. I still do? I hate all of this.

I am so embarrassed for having hope.