Back on this sub… again. (F26)

I broke up with my ex boyfriend almost 3 years ago because of his PA. It led me to being single for 2 years and I met my recent boyfriend (now ex!) in early 2024. I thought he was different since I told him early on about my journey, my boundaries and PTSD from my ex who made me very scared of opening up and having sex with someone. He told me he didn’t like watching or consuming that media much since he knew exactly what was wrong with it and how it messes with your brain….

Apparently he has been lying for the entirety, especially the last 6 months where he has “only watched it 5 or so times” and not like the other PA we knew meanwhile he knew it was the biggest boundary I had, even before we started dating, and I told him multiple times do not date me if you can’t do it. I told him I don’t want to get my heart broken again. He finally told me after pushing him for the truth after he lied to me multiple times I guess because this time was different since he wanted to wear no condom hence why I asked him again if he was hiding things behind my back and I wasn’t going to do it unless he was 100% telling me the truth. Guess it got him to feel guilty finally. Please know that if a man is defensive why you don’t trust him even though “he’s doing wrong” - just know he’s definitely a liar. I am glad I left now even though it was still 6 months officially in, and hope many of you will do the same ❤️