After watching the movie Substance

I’m feeling so low today after watching Substance last night with my boyfriend. I can’t even watch anything with nudity without getting triggered and I just stormed off and shut the bedroom door. I made an effort to communicate afterwards and hearing him say “it doesn’t help when I’m working on not watching porn” “these scenes turned me on and made me think about porn” just crashed me.

I hate that I see women’s bodies as threat to the relationship or my self worth. I can’t control what he sees. I just want to go back to how I was before