Another relapse and it’s still my fault

My husband has told me several times now that the reason he keeps going back to porn is he isn’t attracted to me physically. I have not changed in appearance since we met I weight the same, same hair color etc.

He said he has never been attracted to me physically since we got together.

I am on the plus side so I know I am not some skinny model or anything… but I have tried losing weight! I have several medical conditions that when mixed make it hard for me to workout because of them. I try not to eat in excess and succeed most days! But I have other medical conditions that make losing weight seem impossible even with a good diet. It’s just hard.

We have had about 10-15 D-days in the last six months.

Tonight I told him to either learn to love me and be attracted to me or divorce me because I’m not able to live my life like this…

His reply, “I won’t divorce you today.”

He is the main provider for us I work but he makes the most money. We have been looking for a house and now I just don’t know if I should allow us to buy a house when his answer makes me feel like he might divorce me because he doesn’t think he can love me and only me.

I need advice.