I think I'm fine with it now

Grew up in a homophobic country with religious parents; still there. Was in denial about being queer first but now I'm just closeted. Hearing homophobic remarks really bothered me but I obv couldn't say anything to protect myself. I'm trying really hard to get out of here but honestly I think I'm used to it by now, the fear, the hiding, the suffocation, the loneliness and emptiness. Still trying to get out but idk. Rant over ig