No motivation for maintenance

It feels so weird going through the main stages of treatment but not wanting to do maintenance I just want to stop the weekly bloods, chemo tablets everyday and have more of a normal life is it weird for me to really not want to do maintenance my minds always racing about well if I was In remission first month and I had all the chemo since then surely there’s no need.

Someone please just explain to me how stupid that sounds. I really need an explanation for it I know there’s the chance but how large is the chance. Also I’m not even far into maintenance at all I just feel like it should be over now that maintenance has started.