Do you cry about this too?…

I was watching videos with cute cats and immediately remembered my cat, he is now alive, active, often requires attention, and I am so busy with things, introspection and planning for the future, that I miss these fleeting, ordinary days that I could spend. I want to give him more attention so much, and the thought that sooner or later he will not be there (I even visualize this in my mind) hurts me very much, I want to give him a rich life. This applies not only to the cat, it applies to the family too, maybe this is exactly the reason why I am marking time, I constantly think about how once having achieved their dream, they will sit and remember these days, remember something and it will already be so far away ... I mean, I will go really very far from my family, I will miss my brother, now I can’t even have fun with him and strengthen the relationship, because I am afraid to become even more attached

And every time I remember and think about it, I cry a lot, as if at 80 years old I will go through all this and it will be so painful to realize that everything I have now will be so long ago and so far away.