I’m exhausted , where are you?

I only had two very LTRs before going back to being single, now I’ve been single for about two years, this year I started OLD very seriously but it’s been just a series of unfortunate events. I go on dates, put myself out there, I keep working on myself, get my shit together in every aspect of my life . I know I’m fortunate enough to have a lot good going on in my life, but I wanted to be loved and want to love someone. I know ppl say to love yourself and I do that, but I also want a loving caring and consistent partner in my life, I kept meeting ppl, telling them my life stories over and over again, kept getting disappointed. I’m exhausted and heartbroken. Where is he? Where are you ?