I’m done drinking

I’m done drinking for good. I’m not gonna let myself become an alcoholic like my dad. I’m sick and tired of feeling like shit all day wondering how I’m gonna get another bottle. I’m tired of wondering if people around me know I’m drunk. I’m tired of waking up with a racing heart wondering if I’m gonna die. I’m tired of checking my eyes in the mirror wondering if they are gonna be yellow. I’m done I’m gonna be a healthy man from now on.

Is what I tell myself as I’m walking into the liquor store.