I genuinely never met a non racist white person micro or not

I have never once met a non racist white man or women all either have this idea about me before getting to know me have weird questions to ask about my skin that you could easily google and spare the awkwardness men have weird sexual fantasies about us never quite fitting in is hard but at the same time i don’t want to fit in with a bunch of people who never actually will treat us as equal also being the butt of most jokes doesn’t help either i seriously am sick of it anyone else feel this way?