I lost my virginity because I was manic.

I was never a sexual person. I rarely get horny and I’m not really interested in sex. But when I was manic, I lost my virginity to the most narcissistic guy I have ever met in my life. And to make things worse, the first thing he said after he smashed me for two minutes was “Stop acting like a virgin. You’re not.” So I’m a traumatized polar warrior.