Does anyone else feel humiliated and ashamed of being autistic?

I constantly feel humiliated my entire life, I feel weak, emotional, insecure and just pathetic. I constantly think about how much better my life would be if I wasn't autistic,I'm bashamed and feel like my whole life is over. I had so many things I wish I could do but I just don't think I could ever accomplish. I will never be as good as other people, no matter how hard I try I never have the charisma a normal person has, or the ability to not need to constantly think about what I'm doing, or the mental stability, or any of the other things people get for free. My whole life feels like one big humiliation and I'm ashamed of it