Does being transgender irritate you?

It pisses me off and I'm so tired of all this shit. My whole day is "am I pass enough?" and "do they see me as a guy?" I'm sick of all this, I want friends who I don't have to tell about my lore and genitals, I don't want to worry about the pass, I just want to exist. I am not proud to be transgender, I never asked for it. I wonder if I am alone in this feeling