I am altered

I can’t help but imagine listening to this album all the way through with you. You are special to me, this band is special to both of us. Would it be too much to listen to it the first time all the way through together? Maybe it’s dumb but I can’t stop thinking about experiencing something so beautiful and moving alongside someone who is even more of a masterpiece and would feel it as deeply as I would. To share that memory and connection with you would heal and simultaneously break my heart in the most perfect way.

You are so, so sweet and I wonder if you even know it. Is it wrong to want to explore this depth? At first I thought it would be complicated but I think we could honor and maintain our friendship without complication. There will always be “maybe in another life” but I don’t want to miss out on knowing you in this one.

My, my those eyes like fire…