I should've stuck it out

I'm sorry i had to end things, and im especially sorry for not telling you the real reasons. I thought it was for the best, but I ended up being selfish. I wasn't in the right headspace and I didn't want you to try to keep me together. You deserve someone present... and I wasn't. I know you probably hate or don't care for me anymore, and I understand, but I just wish I was completely honest and open about my mental state. I stay up late regretting it, and I wish I could have the guts to tell you. I hope you are doing well and that you are proud of who you are and what you've become.