why can i only moan one man’s name??

whenever i do my funny business with myself, a man’s name always comes out of my mouth but its been happening for years and im scared thats when i do my funny business with another guy i wont moan the right name. ive tried hard to stop but his name just comes back everytime

i dont want to make it seem like im fantasizing about another man when im in a relationship because im not i just cant get one man’s name out of my head and its not like we have a thing together, am i just attached to him???