Trying to take my life again.

So i took pills like a week ago. It didn’t go as i planned. It fked up my insides. And my family found out and they took me to mental health institutes and yeah it fked up my mental health to even worse level. So now i’m thinking about cutting my wrist deep enough while drinking painkillers and alcohol. I think i really need someone to talk to but i don’t think i can find someone.