can't deal with this anymore

Just one of those days.

I'm 29. I can't gym anymore. I can't run. Hiking hurts. Might cancel my kitesurf course next month.

I can barely do my job (tutor) properly because I need to sit. I can't even sit at a restaurant with mates without the pain bothering me.

Struggling to find a physio in my city that can help.

I'm sick of the numbness that I feel in my toes. The pain in my knee caps walking down the stairs. The stinging pain shooting down my leg. The soreness of my lower back.

I can't even sleep because lying down hurts.

It's so debilitating. Kind of want to lose my shit and give up every other day.

Sorry just need to rant. No one in my life gets it.