I lost my pets in a house fire

Several weeks ago, I went through a house fire that completely destroyed my home. My cats did not make it out.

I was away overnight, I had arranged for someone to check on them and my grandmother while I was gone. I thought I had everything taken care of and under control so I could just take a small break. Unfortunately, that ended up not being the case.

I wasn't even there. They were alone. I'm horrified at the thought of what their final moments were like. Scared, in pain, and with me nowhere to be found. I've been having nightmares about them. I miss them so much. I feel completely empty without them. I honestly don't know how to keep going without them.

I miss them so much. They were the sweetest and most loving cats. They were always there for me when I needed them. I don't know if I can ever own a cat again. I feel like shit for not being able to protect them.