Not looking foward to today

Going back home from thailand, get kicked out of hotel at 12pm.....dont catch plane until 10pm, 9 hour flight. thats 19+ hours or so till i land in home country without my own toilet, i wasnt able to go on the way here but luckily just managed to dehydrate myself (badly, point of headache and dizziness) and hold it for 12+, doubt i can do anymore. I didnt have to wait 10 hours on the way here. If my bladder tears apart it was nice knowing yas. Was it worth it too travel for 2 weeks, who knows

UPDATE: just made it home, but it couldve gone better honestly. I started off well and was able to urinate 3 times using the quite public hotel toilet. But as soon as i got to the airport it was a massive succession of misfires, the toilets were just way too busy. I tried on the plane, failed, gave up and ended up holding it for 13+ hours and just peed when i got home. I will be looking into graduation exposure therapy. Thanks for all the comments