Gender freakout last night

Why is it that when my life is really stressful that I seem to question whether I'm trans and not non binary?

That's happened to me a few times now. Last night, between work stress, a fight with my wife about my obsessive hate for Trump and Elon I was in a very stressed vulnerable state.

When I was alone with my thoughts journaling, I start going down the road of am I trans and in denial and labeling myself non binary and presenting androgynous is just a safe place because I'm afraid to admit the truth?

Then when life is easy and smooth, I don't question it and happily go about my day with my gender blended a Steven Tyler vibe.

Chat GPT gave me a startling response saying that the reason these feelings come up about whether I'm Trans or not when I'm stressed is because of being stressed I don't have the mental bandwidth to repress and push down my feelings about gender 😟

I cried buckets last night and today I feel fresh and good again.

Edit: I notice I got downvoted. I hope I didn't offend anyone. Wasn't my intention.