I just can't quit.

Life is so bad that this is my only escape. This world is pathetic and it's a shame that I have to explore a sick and fictional world like the porn world to find pleasure. It's hard to be disciplined. I should have responsibilities at my age but this has took over my life and took control of me. I could read a book or something but it's boring plus I'm in too deep. With the trauma I got, I was destined to be a freak. I want to get away from my old ways and stash but I can't see it. It's a hassle.