I rehomed my animals today because of them.

I’m not in a position to financially leave my narc partner for many personal reasons, as lot of us aren’t, and I wish the narc abuse only stemmed to me but we had dogs together. Beautiful dogs who I loved very much. Yes they were a handful but I loved one in particular so much and all he did was shout (nothing physical just verbal) at them, they couldn’t do anything and eventually just became timid because of him.

I decided the best course of action was to rehome them about four months ago but it became an internal fight with myself because I loved them so much, but the shouting recently has been worse and I don’t want them living like that. He would shout at me whenever they misbehaved and said all I did was let them get away with it.

I found two lovely couples last night who have came and picked up my dogs. The first one broke my fucking heart, there’s a hole that will never be fixed but I’m glad she’s going somewhere people will love and cuddle her all the time. I’m currently waiting for the second couple to take my other dog. I am a terrible person and I should have been stronger for my dogs but I couldn’t be, and that’s something I’ll have to live with for the rest of my life. I deserve the bad karma. I hope they’ll be so much more loved, I hope they’re never shouted at again.

I let them know this morning just how much I loved them :( Please someone tell me I’m not an awful person I just can’t stop crying.

Edit: I contacted both the people who took my dogs and they’ve agreed to give me personal updates and have already sent me photos and said how much they love them and care about them. I picked the right people.