Here's how she ruined MMORPGs for me

This is a rant more than anything else. I used to enjoy games at a particular standard level. Log in, do the stuff that you're supposed to do, finish any dailies/challenges, have as much fun as you can, log out, repeat.

Then, along came this girl who "trained" me (completely in a selfless, benevolent manner) in a new MMO as she was much higher level and a fantastic, skilled player; while I had just installed said game. She just had this innate sense of mechanics that awed me. I had seen such talent and grasp before, and as a result, I respected her a lot.

Over time, we grew close. We used to do runs, dungeons, and MSQs together. More importantly, we used to sit and do nothing at all, just chatting up, for an unhealthy amount of time. Many would call this love or infatuation, but it was respect toward someone whom you think of as a teacher.

Soon, we had played through new games (new characters or entirely new MMOs) several times. She made the whole concept of an MMORPG so exciting. The simple way she'd explain why a dagger works better for a certain type of enemy was a life lesson (and practical, of course). The way she'd explain why it's not about the weapon tier/level/damage but the way you use it, opened my eyes. And a lot more stuff. That's all redundant.

The point is, there came a point when we had to go our ways, in a very "irl" sense for various reasons that are not important at all.

But since that day, there hasn't been a single day that I have launched an MMO and felt fulfilled. Feeling fulfilled, btw, used to be daily stuff before she came along. Now, it's barren.

What saddens me is not that it's become "boring" or "dull" without a companion. I never craved friends to play with. And in-game companions are thankfully in no short supply in most games, they are always there, helpful, and polite (well, mostly).

What saddens me is, somehow, it has actually become depressing to launch a game, a game that has a world, a world that doesn't have her anymore. To exist in a world like that is suffocating, and I have lost all interest in MMORPGs. Worse yet, there's no other genre I actually like to play. I mean, tf am I supposed to do, train for headshots in a pleb machine gun game?

That's it. No solution is required. I just needed to type it out. Feel free to delete this post.