How to keep up inner motivation after tech layoffs ? I feel dead inside. Jobless since Nov'24 What to do next ?

I was working as Mobile Developer at a startup and got laid off in just under 2 months. I am jobless since November and didn't get any interview anywhere (almost every company wants 1-2 year exp where I have only 5 months including NP). It was my first job. What makes me sadder is that I held an offer from a service-based company which I had rejected for this shitty startup offering more money. I am the one to blame here I shouldn't have joined this shit startup when I had a stable offer in this tough economy. But I can't reverse my past actions.
Coming to today, I find myself void of worth, hope and any opportunity. I am again dependent on my parents. With time passing I have lost all zeal I had in college to be a great software dev. Now seeing relatives asking How much you make ? When will you marry ? Prepare for MS etc. I am feeling more and more worthless. I am feeling I should have died in an accident than to be useless like this. I don't know whether I should still try my luck in Software field or not. I see AI can code better than me, it was not as good in 2023 but in late 2024 I see it has improved a lot and it can make much better UIs, business logic, follow clean arch than me. I have deep fear that I will be able to earn again.
I tried in various companies asked my friends for referrals but not received any single interview call. I have lost all motivation to do DSA or make projects. These days I am doing nothing but feeling depressed and just thinking what should I do next. I can't find courage to face the unknown reality of my future.

Lately, I have been exploring about giving NEET (thanks to no age limit here) or prepare for government exams or kill myself ending all misery but I am not brave enough. Here I ask If someone who has gone through same phase, or changed his field from Software to other can share his/her thoughts. Did you also feel lost after layoffs if they happened to you ? How did you dealt with that ?