Only regrets

Today, I was wondering that what I did to my entire life and whenever I look back, I only feel regrets and nothing else.

2 saal ki mehnat, lagan aur dedication ka kya hua, mein bhi nhi jaanta.

Maine bas school life enjoy ki h aur zindagi mein kuch nhi kiya. School mein maje karta tha aur ghar mein gaand phaad padhai, magar kya hua iska.

Ab 2-3 din mein result aa jaega aur mein kahi ka nhi rahuga, mujhe nhi lag rha ki mera JA nikalne vala h aur meri JM mein voh percentile aa rhi h jo bas sunne mein achchi lagti h magar achchi h nhi.

So, I lost.....

I lost to NTA, I lost to my luck, I lost to myself.

I thought that I will change my fate but nothing happened. I still remember the day when I thought that I will do anything to change my fate, I was not a topper from start.

I scored mere 60% in 9th then I thought that I should change it as I can not see sad face of my parents then I scored above 97% in 10th then 88% in 11th but due an accident in 12th, my flow got broken and I messed my JEE and I always regret that why did I go to school that day? If I had not gone to school then I could have easily scored 30-40 marks more but now, I can only regret.