My first time was with my Uncle

and I think it's really ruined the way I see sex and also my relationships.

My uncle was my first time and the one who really taught me about sex. We were doing it regularly for a few years, and actually still do it sometimes now but much less frequently.

I've dated some guys from school since but honestly they never compared to the way my uncle treated me and made me feel good. One time my bf really disappointed me for sex and that night I went to my uncle's to take care of me properly, which he did so good.

The whole time he was talking dirty and also talking down about my bf like "(bf's name) can't fuck you like I can" and "uncle's dick feels so much better than (bf's name) right?" and I felt bad but it was sooo hot. The way he sucks my nipples (for some reason so many guys don't do that normally?), gets his tongue all the way up my cunny when he eats me out (so good), and the way he's so dominant with me like putting me in certain positions, feeling his strong hands holding me in place and just being a bit rough when he fucks me.

I don't really want to date guys my age anymore and now when I see men my uncle's age I keep wondering what it'll be like to fuck them. It feels so wrong and I feel like my uncle's ruined dating and sex for me!! Hahah.