Sob story

Yes roast me please newbie letting my feelings get in the way 🙏

i basically met a girl off TF 2 trips ago to pattaya on holiday . Met up at her bar , had fun for few days ( i was also seeing many other ladys ) , i then went home to her video call every single day without fail . Had a good connection then the money started can I help out for her child's transport to school , 2nd trip few months later ( again I spent time with many lady's aswell as her in pattaya ) i returned pattaya again , had fun spent time together bought her perfume etc. Paid for her BF and gave her the odd 1000 baht for her time ko larn etc , returned home then again video call everyday ( my feelings are alot for her ) she said she had no money she isn't happy in the bar, I said return home or simply get another job at 7 eleven if you don't like bar work , we started arguing everyday her saying I look down on bar lady and have a bad opinion of her when I merely suggested she gets a normal job , then also the money increased " can I have 4000 a week support me " I said I cannot afford. She then asks for a phone. , gold necklace i replied i cannot afford that either , she then said if you cannot support me block me so I blocked her and I cannot stop thinking of her !

Although I'll answer my own questions:- if I liked her that much why would I see other girls while in pattaya and why didn't I step up the support money for her .

Thinking back I think its for the best , I will soon return for the 3rd time soon and avoid her bar and just have plenty of fun with the other lady's of pattaya . Any advice/ criticism welcome