I’m so stupid, I fell for her lies

A few months ago I came here somewhat “excited” (stupid, I know) that my mother had come back to apologize, try to make amends and make nice. I was so optimistic about the possibility of getting her to take accountability and treating us better. Until a few days ago, my brother made a joke about me (we have a great relationship, we just joke around a lot) and she took it seriously and responded to him “we have to be nice to it now. It has money”

I froze in my tracks. It? The pronoun you use for an object? I’m as functional as a table? And all this niceness was because you thought you had something to gain from me financially?

I’m broken. I feel like I’m 7 years old again, helpless and pathetic, being bullied and stepped on.

WHY DID I THINK IT WAS GENUINE??????? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? I’m so stupid