Struggling

Hi all. I feel like I really need to vent this out as I’ve held it in for so long. I am so sick of hurting everyday and feel frustrated.

I was diagnosed with an ovarian teratoma 4 years ago and I’ve finally had my pre assessment for surgery. The thing is, I’m constantly in pain around the groin, hips and it radiates down into my legs. It feels like a deep pain. I’m not a doctor but I have two degrees in biology related fields and am currently in the final years of my PhD, so I am well placed to understand scientific literature. I am convinced I have endo. They told me on the scan all they can see is gas and that will be causing pain - I don’t have gas everyday, I think I would know about it if I did. I also don’t think that gas would cause so much pain that I cannot concentrate on anything. I’m trying to keep healthy but sometimes it even hurts to walk. My periods are also getting more and more out of whack with 6-8 weeks between them. I suppose the teratoma could have developed hormone producing tissue.

In an odd way I am hoping endo shows when they take the teratoma cyst out. I know it cannot be cured (hopefully in future!) but at least I’ll know what’s causing the pain.

Felt good to get that off my chest. Hope you all have a wonderful day ❤️

FYI, NHS patient, UK. On copper coil. Take naproxen for pain but this isn’t regular. I try to fight through it (yes I know this is dumb…)