wondering if I should check myself into a psych ward or something...

I'm having increasingly worse drops in my mental health, to the point that I'm having serious, graphic intrusive thoughts of taking my own life, and my next counseling appointment isn't until next Monday...

I'm barely holding myself together, a good chunk of this I'm pretty sure is because I ran into one of my abusers on Friday, and I'm facing the seemingly likely scenario of becoming homeless next month. I don't want things to end for me, but I'm having trouble just finding any real reason to fight it anymore.

I have to wait until tomorrow, but I don't really know of any other options I can take right now. I don't really feel like I have anyone irl to talk to, and even just getting a couple days away from everyone and everything might be good for me. I need help and I'm just not getting it...