DAE Feel like they've lived for too long?

I was looking at old photos of mine, from early childhood to now, and was thinking that throughout my whole life I've always had this feeling that I am living past my time, like I was meant to die alot sooner then how long I've lived. And also I often get a feeling like something bad is going to happen to me (again) but this time it will end me, but it has yet to come, so I am kind of always in a state of mild paranoia just at the thought that i am somehow still alive, and that feels wrong. It's almost like living on borrowed time.

Im in my early 20s but i know this feeling is not stopping anytime soon