My ex is moving out tomorrow

My 21M ex boyfriend broke it off with me a week ago after almost 2years. I 25F have been literally in the worst pain, it still cuts deep. I thought we could work on what parts of the relationship needed fixed. I thought he would want to try at least before making the decision to leave. I thought he had the respect for not only me, but the relationship we built and memories we made. I thought he was my soulmate, I wanted to spend our lives together. We even had plans to move somewhere after we finished school. Guess he never loved me as hard as I loved him. I still love and care for him deeply. Our relationship wasn't toxic in anyway. It was the best relationship I've been in. The only thing I'd say was our problem was intimacy, and spending quality time together. This wasn't a problem for the first year. Also, after he kind of blindsided me I'd say he needs to work on his communication skills. I literally didn't know it was so bad he wanted to get out.

My ex and I met in a different state and we had moved in together not long after getting together. When we lived down in his home state, that was when it was the best. We had sex everyday, we spent a lot of time together, did new things. 6 months into our relationship I lost one of my siblings tragically. I felt bad for my mother being alone so we decided to move about 11 hours away to my home state. I had asked him if this was going to be okay, I told him he didn't have to come if he thought that was going to be a giant step. He hesitated, but agreed to move.

When we first got to my home state, of course things were new and we were still intimate. But overtime we started having less quality time together and of course less intimacy. I had tried to talk about our issues and to come spend time with me. He literally secluded himself all day and almost all night on his computer playing games and what not. At first, this was fine because we both were doing online school. He never really much talked about school, I tried multiple times to ask. Then maybe from this point, a month or so ago I randomly find out he dropped out of school. Never bothered to communicate that to me. Not to mention he did have a job when we first moved here and was there for a couple of months. He started to get tired of it and eventually quit. From that moment he was jobless for months up until this recent December he got a seasonal job at target. After that he just hasn't had a job since. He did apply for stuff, even had a job interview. I guess it didn't pan out.

I have had talks with him about how different he seems now, all the spending time to himself, doesn't seem interested in spending time with me. I missed that so much. I still do. When I asked him, he told me he doesn't like living here. Which I understand, I had been in a situation like that myself. After that I had asked him if he wants to go back home, he said no because I want to be with you. I wanted him to go down and visit with his family for a while, which he was supposed to but he also wanted me to come. I wanted to go but I had a job that I sort of just started and I didn't want to immediately ask for time off. I asked if he wanted me to go he would have to wait a little while. I did say, if he wanted to go on his own he was more than allowed to.

Time goes by some more, I keep suggesting he come and spend time with me. (Now when I say spend time, I really mean like intimacy time, cuddling, kissing, etc.) A week ago from today, we finally had quality time and watched a movie together. We laughed and had fun. After the movie was done he left the room. I kind of was upset because I wanted more and probably an hour goes by before he comes back into our room. I asked him if he even wants to be with me anymore. He just stays silent. Probably 20 minutes go by and I ask him again and again, he finally just says "I think we should break up." I can still hear him saying that and it cuts so deep. I asked him to please try and I know we can fix our problems. He refused to try and said he was done with us and wants to move back home. I was crushed.

Now throughout the week, I've been breaking down hard, I've done all the things I thought might change his mind. I wrote him a keepsake note, I gave him all of our photos I have physical copies of, tried reminding him of all the experiences we had, and i even took him somewhere romantic in nature. No, he is set on leaving. Last thing I bought for him was a star. Probably shouldn't have wasted my energy. I thought our relationship was worth fighting for.

He has continued to hug and kiss me. We have also had a couple intimate moments that I initiated to hope to spark some kind of feeling. He said he does really care for me and love me, but not so much romantically. When I asked him what he's going to do when he's back home he told me he just wants to stay single for a while, and figure himself out. I told him if anything happened like this before we moved that he would have plenty of time to get stuff together. I feel like after a week of seeing me breakdown he just decided last night he was leaving in a day. Really messes me up. Really sets things into place. I feel like a piece of me is going away, a piece of me ill probably never see again. I feel so empty and I just want him to stay. I don't want to be abandoned.

I know he got unmotivated overtime, I just dont know why. He just has nothing else to say as to why he lost interest in our relationship. I wish I knew more. I wish he knew it was always okay to talk to me. Moving on hurts, because I don't want to let him go. The thought of meeting someone new right now makes me feel sick.

I want to keep in contact with him to know he's okay, and he's told me he wants to stay friends and keep in touch.

The thing that hurts the most is I probably will never get to see him in person again. He will live states away. I feel like im dealing with death. I truly loved him so much. Always will.