Feel sick/exhausted when thinking about getting v close to people - advice?

Looking for advice. also probably needed disclaimer that i have diagnosed avoidant personality disorder, which may contribute to some of/the intensity of these feelings, but still wondering if you guys have any advice/insights/suggestions about this

When I think about the effort needed to make close friendships it sounds like a chore and makes me feel absolutely exhausted - i have acquaintances and am good at making conversation, but moving past that is where i begin feeling irritated with the efforts needed. The other part of this is that, like almost everyone, i do eventually want to "find my person" or whatever and settle down with them, but the idea of being that close with someone in such an emotional capacity literally makes me sick to my stomach

im working with a therapist who understands my issues and PD and shes pushing me to work harder to make friendships, etc but it literally borderline repulses me to think about the effort needed. this is probs due to a combo of how dismissive i am (its hard for me to want to get close to another person/want them in my life) and my overwhelming fear of being rejected/~perceived for who i am~

do any of you experience something similar? what have you done to try to combat it?🥲