Anyone with kids? The guilt is unreal.

So my son is diagnosed and my three daughters are being assessed as the school picked it up in each one before I did sadly as I'm only now learning what it looks like in girls, I'm now waiting to be assessed also with quite obvious autism traits... But now all my kids struggles that I see them having, I see as me as a child and my gosh I feel so guilty that Im the one that's probably done that to them. Growing up and adulting has been beyond my mental capacity many times throughout my life and I wouldn't want to ever be the cause of anyone experiencing that too, but now knowing that I'm likely autistic and my kids are too is hard to deal with. Then I feel guilty for even thinking and saying these things.. they are all so bloody awesome in their own little ways, they have saved me so many times from dark places and are very much my own friends as I don't have any because they make me feel normal. But I feel guilty and broken every single day they're bullied, overstimulated and struggling. How do I deal with this? Or am I wrong for feeling and thinking that had I of known I was autistic I wouldn't of considered having kids.