Is it normal to be mildly suicidal?

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I do not think id ever commit but Ive constantly felt hopeless ever since I found out I was autistic. I dont feel like I have a place in this world. That I’ll never be truly happy this way. I’ve been going through skill regression as well as struggle with relationship and such. Overall, I just feel…blah about everything. Does anyone relate to this in anyway?