Confused in what went wrong
Had my 1st date in a while with this girl n I thought things went well, we went to the movies n then went to go get some bubble tea which she paid for(I paid for the movie btw). We talk for hrs, the chemistry is good n it gets dark n we don’t realize, after that she say she’s gotta leave n i say cool, but she’s hinting she wanted to go back to my place so I invited her back n she obliged.
When we got there, I turn on music n we practically kissed n had sex almost immediately, everything’s good except it’s my 1st time n I’ve never kissed or had sex with a woman so I’m nervous n my dick isn’t working well. I’m not visibly shaking but I’m having trouble getting hard n honestly just don’t really feel anything she’s doing to me.
She offers to blow me till I’m hard n she does, she puts it in, n we fuck a bit in missionary but it keeps going soft n slipping out. She blows me again n then gets on top n she claims it feels better as she’s moaning n even squirts a bit on me but yeah. We then switch to doggy n then after that I eat her out a bit but can’t make her cum, we lay down n chill but she asks to put it in while we cuddle n i do we start fucking n she’s bitting the sheets, moaning n screaming so I have to cover her mouth at times. I still don’t cum n honestly don’t feel much of anything as I’m tired n exhausted so she decides to masturbate n I choke her. She claims to cum that way but I don’t think she actually did.
She then offers to 69 but I’m say nah n she just blows me to try n make me cum, it felt good n I was kinda close but didn’t cum so we stopped n laid there, talked, cuddled n eventually she went home. Through out the whole thing when I looked at her she seemed disappointed at times but was also moaning a lot n said she was close to nutting so idk. Before she left I assured her it wasn’t her n I was just nervous n jerk off too much, she was also a lot more comfortable(she had looked nervous n shy the whole date) n dancing n everything n playing with my body, made some comments about tattoos n some jokes as well so I figured things were fine.
I giver her a hug n tell her to text me when she’s home, she does n next day we add each other on IG. I try to hit her up today for another date n she hits me with this,
Me: Hey Naya, how’s it going beautiful? ;)
Me: Been thinking about u n I’m tryna see u again this weekend ;)
Her: Hey, I'm good, I'm busy this weekend but I was thinking that we might not work out
Me: Damn! It’s okay, i understand the sex wasn’t the best so i get that!
Me: Was nice getting to know u tho, hope u find whatchu looking for ❤️
Her: I wasn't the sex. I just wasn't planning on that was all. It was nice getting to know you too!
Me: Oh u just wanted some fun not a relationship? I understand ❤️ Bye ✌🏿
Her: No I do want a relationship. But thanks for understanding. Bye
I’m not sure what happened really, she let me go raw, let me give her hickeys, we fucked n she seemed into it n was snuggled on me afterwards. Was it the sex, was she just looking for fun, was it the fact that me not nutting made her feel ugly? Any of y’all been in this situation, dating is mad confusing 🫤