Do you ever get scared that you're bipolar whenever you feel happy or extremely irritable?

Recently it has become my biggest issue because i scan my emotional reactivity and I'm afraid that i have bipolar. I'm very irritable, sometimes angry, i have issues falling asleep but i don't feel happy at all. And I've been scared if i do then it's manic episode and if I'm irritable then it's a mixed episode etc.

It's stopping me from living my life fully